it’s strange to think that when someone is constantly around us, it is so easy for us to take them for granted. they will always be there, they will always be accessible. and it’s even stranger when you come to the realization that those people being around give us a sense, a feeling of peace and calm and the universe being the way it should be as we do things in life. i think this is something to be aware of all of the time, as much as we can be, but i think it’s something that we don’t really notice until a person like this drops off of the map for one reason or another. this is my way of saying to you, although you will never know it, that while i may tease you and call you names and preach about how unacceptable you are (because let’s face it, you are completely unacceptable)… you being missing, especially on your birthday is something that makes me feel as though the universe is not exactly how it should be. you are such a bright, happy, wonderful individual and i just hope you know that you bring so much light to so many people’s lives. whether it is us as fans, or the people in your life, i know that with your caring, compassion and ultimately your passion for what you love and what you do, you make everyone smile more than you know i’m sure. i know that even though you make me smack myself in the face, you are an angry little chihuahua that makes my universe feel a little bit better. so please get better soon and grace our lives with your unacceptable being, and i hope that even though you may not be feeling your absolute best, that you have the most amazing birthday you can possibly have. because you deserve it, you wonderful bastard.